more about feelings

I have had some time to think about what my mom said about my kitchen. I washed some dishes and exercised (almost 3000 steps on the stepper) and washed some more dishes and I have realized that she may have a point.  She is not used to the clutter and outright mess that I have in my kitchen. Also it really isn't even clean by my standards, it is workable.   So I will do my best to have it clean to my standards by Friday when she comes.  I know that won't be clean by her standards, but she will hopefully notice that I have made an effort to bring things back in line with how they could be.  I an glad that I have this blog to vent my feelings.  I know that so far it has been more about depression than homeschooling, but that is life.  Depression is the overiding controling factor of my life right now.  I am hoping that using this blog will help me to work through it and make it a small part of my life, not the most important thing.  I probably am not the first person to realize this, but when you have depression, life becomes all about "you",  how you feel, what you are able to do, what mistakes you made today.  I need to make more of an effort to focus on the rest of my family and my life.  The things I want and need to do.  I know this won't be easy, but I need to do it.  Now to find the courage to take the second step and get started on the journey.