It has been a while. I have not been feeling very well emotionally. trying to figure out how to do everything that is supposed to be done. Bah Humbug. Oh wait, wrong season for that, I don't care, it is how I feel. Well, I don't remember if I have posted since my last weigh in at Curves, but I lost 13 lbs and 11 inches since I joined. I bounce between being happy that it is a loss and wishing it was more. When I am happy that it was a loss, I exercise even more, when I am depressed because it isn't more, I eat. Then I feel guilty, because here I am trying to loose weight and I am eating more than I should, then I feel even more guilty. I guess I am good at guilt. I don't remember anyone ever trying to make me feel guilty. Wonder why that is such a strong emotion for me. Will have to think on that one some more.
On a happier note, we got our tax refund back, and with it paid the money we have due to the state and ordered a new fridge and then had a nice family night out on Saturday. Went out to eat and then spent some time at a local carnival. The kids each played two games and got some cheesy little stuffed animals, but it is part of going to carnivals. I had many of them from when I was younger. We also have a bit left over so now I decide what bills get paid early or paid off. I wish, well as my grandmother says, "If wishes were horses, beggars would ride." So no good wishing. Just keep going the best we can. I thought this would be a long post since I haven't posted for a while, but I am too tired to think very much right now.
Tomorrow is another day. Night.
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